Just though of coming back to this page, this place where I pen down my loveliest time together with him and take a slow walk down memory lane again to do a refreshing of the mind.
Guess it really did serve as a reminder of how far we've come, how much accomplishments we've made as a couple, the initial struggle of winning my dad over to approve us, the mistakes we made, the correction we made, the learning to collaborate with each other the love that we shared.
Endless work that needs to be done in a thing called LOVE.
I'm thinking no one ever comes here to read anymore, not even you..I just need an outlet to "let out my cries".
Yes setbacks are inevitable in relationships, arguments and fights are necessary to build us up to help us learn how to work around our differences. However last night was a mad one i guess...
Conclusion: 10days of putting into serious though about this whole thing, 10 days of learning to be independent, 10days of finding that which I left behind in a hurry, 10days to tell myself we're gonna work this, and if we do survive this 10days? We'll fight harder to stay together to work together, to COLLABORATE again, lesser nonsense from you and I.
Sometimes a short rest will do us good, it empowers us to run further, it teaches us the importance of cherishing what we have. - I do hope this does justice for us.
So instead of crying and feeling all outta the world, lets work hard and change and correct the bad habits that's putting a strain to this relationship.
Day 1
Has been really tough, when I told you to walk away I felt a burden lifted from me, not because you were my burden but because I didn't want you to see me crying else you'll never go home, when u left, part of me wished that you'll be waiting for me at the lift lobby, yet I hope you won't. I walked and walked around my estate, recalling the talked that we just had, thinking that I shouldn't have said some words, tearing and when it's dried I went back home. Sat in the showers and broke down again cos I thought everything was so silly, if only I wasn't so stubborn..
Strummed the guitar so hard, looked at my cock-board full of pictures of Us and choked up with tears of frustrations, cried myself to sleep.
Am at work now and i'm choked with tears every now and then and it feels really awful. Really really awful knowing I have to do stuffs alone at least for this 10days.
I'm the one that asked for this, but is this what I wanted?
Perhaps this 10 days is good for us.
Always have Love,
Melissa
